Thursday, December 2, 2010

A run I'll never forget

I was the happiest guy to ever finish seventh place.

Fifty yards ahead of me, with about 100 yards to go, was Mike Devlin, the fastest guy on the 1983 Howell Township Cross-Country team. My fiery coach at Point Boro High, his face beet-red and his soiled eyes leering at me, pointed at Mike's backside and fired off an order.

"Go get him!" he yelled. "Beat him, and we get the shut-out."

I did.

When Mr. Seyfried barked, you bowed. When he wanted speed, you spun.

Soon, the distance was 40 yards. Then 20, and 10. With just 20 feet to go, I lunged past Mike, head and all, and stretched out a split-second advantage for myself. I probably saw too many of those photos of Jesse Owens from the 1936 Olympics, thinking I could lunge, run and win, just like Jesse. It worked.

I was always hoping I could win something. Anything. Before then, I didn't win much. I didn't get the girls. I got picked last in kickball. I got cut from the baseball team. I got cut from the basketball team.

That day, on Oct. 18, 1983, in Howell, I did. Yeah, it was seventh place. Yeah, I didn't really win. But it was a triumph, and it was my first real one. Whenever I'm tested, I think back to that day, at Howell Township High School, when a little extra effort went so far.

Read the rest here.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Starting over, piece-by-piece, "brick-by-brick"

Beyond the tree-lined roads and horse farms, and far away from the traffic that routinely packed the Laurelton Circle, my father made his living, one day at a time.

It wasn't always easy getting out of bed at 5 a.m. every day, for 20 years, and facing a few hundred chatty kids who packed the small classrooms of the aging Herbertsville Elementary School.

Stan Davis was a teacher, then principal of a school that was so crowded, there wasn't enough room for an all-purpose room. Gym class and lunch were always held in the classrooms, right at the students' desks.

But my father got up every day, anyway, for 20 years, and he didn't really ever want to let go of the old-fashioned simplicity that long defined the Herbertsville section of Brick.

"Once in a while the horses would get loose and get on school grounds," he told me recently.

Eventually, in 1983, he would leave to be principal of Drum Point, and then retire 13 years later before settling in Ocean Grove and Manchester. Eventually, we would all leave, thinking our greener pastures were much farther away.

But we never stopped thinking of the trees, the roads, the horse stables and the old school as "home."

Now, as the Jersey Shore regional editor for Patch.com, and with the introduction of this Brick Township Patch site, I'm back. We're back. Now that we're back, I want to give light to a town that - in many places - never lost it's quaint, rural feel and its pleasant, peaceful views along the muddy banks of the Manasquan River.

I want to provide Brick news, Jersey Shore news, that was once provided and defined by people who stayed for years, and who never wanted to go away, either. Don Bennett, who worked for The Ocean County Observer for decades, and Pat Miller, a veteran of The Asbury Park Press, were among those people. Now they work for Patch.

Read the whole article here.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Living in the air, and for today

Kevin Casey reached inside a small Ziplock bag and pulled out three-inch-thick stacks of sleeve patches, each pile wrapped in rubber bands, and each patch displaying pair of eagle’s wings and a number. He studied one with a big “8” on it that was shaped like a snowman and nearly the same size as the patch.

“Isn't that something?” Casey said as he held the patch, rubbed the design with his thumb tip and then stuffed it back in the clear plastic bag.

It was the patch for his father's World War II unit, the 8th Army Air Force, for which he served as a gunner aboard a B-17 and, said his son, watched other planes "blow up in mid-air."

Casey set that aside, then pulled out more bags from a pile of box that he pulled from his crowded closets, one of the rare times he ever exposes his precious military memorabilia to the outside. He’s got enough to outfit a whole Army brigade or, at the very least, a team of World War II re-enactors who may want to play a game of pretend.

He stacked the boxes on his couch, and then carefully laid his father's size-38 World War II Army Air Force uniform that was wrapped in plastic on the armrest. Casey’s only worn the decorated coat and well-pressed pants twice; he may never do it again, he says, and not because he's a size 42. He fears that any exposure to the outside world could soil it and ruin it.

"I got so many kids here," said Casey, a 56-year-old father of four. "I don't want them anywhere near it."

Much of the stuff was left behind by his father, Patrick, who died when Casey was 11. But Casey has become much more than the keeper of his dad's things. He's collected, read, memorized, decoded and preserved hundreds of pieces of military paraphernalia – books, mission reports, uniform pins and badges, books – that have helped him understand everything his dad went through as a gunner aboard a B-17 bomber 60 years ago.

All that studying and collecting, however, became much more than a mission of discovery. He’s become one of New Jersey’s leading and trusted experts on World War II.

Casey's a guy who is much sought after by reporters whenever they need to compare the war against Germany and Japan to the latest conflicts in Afghanistan or Iraq. He's the guy who will talk to a group of collectors and young military personnel at air shows and exhibits – as he did at a recent air show at Teterboro Airport – and provide an impromptu lesson on World War II Air Force history, all for free.

He wears this history on his sleeve – and everywhere else, for that matter – by suiting up in an authentic World War II uniform at these shows and, as a result, getting a lot of questions from curious onlookers. “Where did you get that,” they ask. “Can I touch it?”

He'll wear a garrison hat tilted to the side, a full khaki uniform and bomber jacket at local air shows – but only replicas, he says, because they can take the wear and tear that his dad’s aging, fragile paraphernalia can’t. He wants to keep his dad’s stuff in tact, he says, and not because he wants to sell anything. It’s because they serve as a constant reminder of what he went through.

“It’s taken more than 50 years to find all this stuff and I’d like to know more,” he said.

When he dons the replicas, Casey not only plays, but looks the part, too, sporting a trimmed mustache and dark sunglasses that help him resemble Robert Conrad's gritty, rough-and-tumble character from the 1970s T.V. show, "Black Sheep Squadron.

His father didn’t have Conrad’s looks, nor did carry the legend of war heroes such as John Glenn or Dwight Eisenhower. But it was his dad’s history that inspired the 56-year-old, who retired from Con Edison last year, to become a World War II historian and begin a long journey toward discovering the kinds of sacrifices his father made as a gunner aboard a B-17.

"Whenever I asked my dad about what happened in the war, all he'd say was, 'It was rough,' " said Casey, whose replica jacket has the inscription "P.K. Casey" and a shamrock emblazoned on the chest.

"There's so much out there – I've spent much of life looking into my dad's life and I still don't have all the answers."

It took Casey many years – not until he was 40 years old, actually – to develop any interest in airplanes, B-17s and military life. As a teenager, he was “too busy growing up,” going to school and getting a job as an electrician at Con Edison to worry about his father’s role in American history.

One day, while driving the Palisades Interstate Parkway in New Jersey, a big plane flew overhead. It was a B-17, and it was heading for an air show at Teterboro Airport. But he didn’t know that, initially. “It was like that feeling on 9-11,” he said. “You wanted to know what that was about.”

He called the local police, who told him about the air show. It was a weekend, so he went. There, he found old yearbooks that documented the battles, the mid-air skirmishes and the tragedies that were associated with the B-17 plane during World War II. Until that day, he only knew that his dad flew in the four-engine bomber.

“The realization came over me that a whole lot of something, a whole lot of stuff that involving my dad happened that I wasn’t aware of,” Casey said.

Through the Internet, at supply stores and at collectors' stands set up at air shows, Casey's purchased patches, books and volumes of other materials that speak to his dad's experiences and, Casey believes, were so stressful that they ultimately damaged his heart, and led to the heart attack that killed him at age 56.

He has loose-leaf binders full of mission reports that show the position his dad's planes flew when he flew 25 B-17 missions into the European theater. He has books with pictures that show his dad – a man who was shorter than his son is now but, judging by Patrick’s stern, determined look in the pictures, no less intense or passionate about his job. He has a copy of his honorable discharge, and he displays his dad’s bronze-star in the living room.

He also has pictures of B-17s falling from the sky, and crashing to the ground. Or they’re on the ground, their propellers broken after a crash landing. Other pictures show the planes shot down by the B-17 – some of which could have been knocked down by his dad, who shot at planes with a machine gun from the side of the “Flying Fortress.”

“He saw people being blown up,” Casey said. “A lot of veterans couldn’t talk about this until they were in their 70s and 80s. He never made it that far.”

The only things he displays in his living room is an artist rendering of his dad’s plane – the B-17 “Flying Fortress” – and a framed glass case with his dad’s medals.

Getting Casey to pull any of this stuff out of storage – a task that, after sorting through the stacks of papers, patches, uniforms, documents and old photos in his closet, could take hours – means either of two things: He’s talking to the media and sharing his expertise, or there’s an air show in the area where military regalia is not only sold; wearing it is also encouraged.

Recently, he dressed in his full military outfit as he boarded a B-17 for a ride down the Hudson River, a preliminary test run before a military expo at Teterboro Airport. As the loud, wobbly plane took off, Casey stood behind the machine gun where his father would have been position. He stared out the window, and imagined the planes that would have flown by – planes that his father would have shot at. He smiled.

“Isn’t this great?” he said. “There’s no feeling like this.”

Friday, November 5, 2010

No parking lot; just paradise

They tried to pave paradise. But, to paraphrase Springsteen: The machine? She was a dud. And she got stuck in the mud.

I was stunned when I saw the results. The powerful block that's ruled Ocean County, N.J. - and dominated everywhere else - couldn't find a way to creep into the town I've long called home, and elect another one of their own.

Yeah, I'm talking, again, about Point Pleasant, N.J., and the news that came from there, my hometown, and the news from the other Jersey Shore towns, and the news from places like Brick Township. The politics of promise won over the typical politics of fear, and even deception.

On Election Day, in Point Pleasant, the people rejected Susan Rogers, who ran for mayor, and they rejected her soundly. They didn't believe her claims to have roots in the community that likely never existed.

In Lacey Township, the people who have elected the machine that's paved over the pines along Route 72 in Manhawkin - another one of my former homes - and was ready to do the same along Lacey Road, were booted, too. One of the power brokers who lost had held his seat for decades.

Like I said before: It was the people fought back, just like the fought back against those who wanted to tear down a swath of forest known as "Red Desert" in Point Pleasant, or a dusty old hill called Forked River Mountain in Lacey.

The developers that feed the coffers of those in power tried, and tried hard, to get their way. But it was the people who stopped it, and they banded to together to halt the bulldozers that would have flattened a thick patch of oak, cedar and maple trees that stretch for more than a mile in Point Pleasant; or acres of pine trees in Lacey that help preserve the Pine Barrens of New Jersey as one of the nation's largest undeveloped patches of land.

I'm looking forward to coming back to these places, in Point Pleasant, Lacey and Brick as the Jersey Shore regional editor for Patch.com, for which I've set up http://www.jerseyshorenews.org for Jersey Shore news. In these towns, there is no push for a big parking lot or a Wal-Mart store.

They know that, regardless of who's in charge, it's the people who matter. Not the bulldozers.

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Big Yellow Taxi (Joni Mitchell)

They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot
With a pink hotel, a boutique
And a swinging hot SPOT
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you've got
‘Til it's gone
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

They took all the trees
And put them in a tree museum
Then they charged the people
A dollar and a half just to see 'em
Don't it always seem to go,
That you don't know what you've got
‘Til it's gone
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

Hey farmer, farmer
Put away that DDT now
Give me spots on my apples
But LEAVE me the birds and the bees
Please!
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you've got
‘Til its gone
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

Late last night
I heard the screen door slam
And a big yellow taxi
Come and took away my old man
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you've got
‘Til it's gone
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

I said
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you've got
‘Til it's gone
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot

Monday, November 1, 2010

Sanity; not fear

Leave it to a comedian to being some levity to a nasty place, and a nasty world.

I watched the Rally Restore Sanity on You Tube, and I had some high expectations. Maybe even impossibly high expectations that could never be met.

Indeed, much of what I saw showed that this would be more Lenny Bruce than MLK. Gags, skits, energy - almost all funny, but not the stuff that would suddenly inspire the apathetic non-voter, the non-thinker to rethink themselves and their lives.

But the one scene that, in Steve Colbert terms, hit from the gut, was from Jon Stewart's closing speech, one that he said would be serious even if it violated the "boundaries" set by others, the boundaries that call Stewart more of a comedian than a leader.

It was a metaphor about togetherness, and it was about a tunnel, and how, every day, traffic snakes into the funnel-like tunnel even as the entrance squeezes them into a tube the size of a straw.

It was the moment that exceeded my expectations, and had me hooked.

These are people are of every political persuasion, with bumper stickers pasted to their bumpers that promote guns or peace, animals or hunting, sanity or insanity. They are the people who could be glued to cable TV, and get a charge out of the level of partisanship thrown at their faces by cable TV talk-show hosts with ulterior motives.

Or they could be people who are just heading into the city because the city is where they make their money. And, to paraphrase Stewart, they're people who don't necessarily identify themselves as Republican or Democrat, Tea Partier or left-wing radical. They're people who view themselves as people who are always late for something.

Yet the people behind the wheel forget what their stickers, what the pundits say and what the politicians say once they pass through toll at the Lincoln or Holland tunnels. All they say to each other as they enter the tunnel is this: You go...I go...You go....I go....

I hope that's a metaphor that can trickle down - and not only wash the stain of partisanship that threatens to destroy our presidency, our Congress and our leaders. I hope it's something that will wash on the voting public as they go to the polls tomorrow, and decide whether they're about to make is something they can believe in - and not just a vote that makes a point.

I look, again, to Point Pleasant, N.J., and the news that's come from there, my hometown, and the news from the other Jersey Shore towns, and the news from places like Brick Township. I look at politics that are based on a premise of fear, and even deception.

Tomorrow, in Point Pleasant, the people will determine whether Susan Rogers gets to be mayor, even as she's claimed to have roots in the community that likely never existed.

As I've written on http://www.jerseyshorenews.org, my Jersey Shore news site for Patch.com, they will walk into the voting booth and see her name. Some will push the button for her, because they could never consider voting for a Democrat.

Others may think twice - and perhaps even ponder what they saw in the police accounts - one in particular - that have focused on Rogers and her behavior. It's behavior that, some say, shows how she's misused her power as an elected official to launch a police investigation after two supporters posted comments about her son on a Facebook campaign page.

I look at Rogers, much like I look at a lot of politicians. I see her as I view Mitch McConnell, the Senate minority leader, who said their main goal after tomorrow's election is to make President Obama a one-term president.

I see them cutting off somebody to get in that tunnel, and it's not so much about being impulsive or trying to catch up because their late.

Its about winning, and gaining power, whatever the cost.

Stewart's words were great. But it was another comedian said it best. The late Bill Hicks, a combination comedian and prophet, offered these words nearly 20 years ago.

He came up with these words just as he learned he was dying from cancer. As weak as he was, they were words from the gut, and from the heart:

"It's just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice. No effort, not work, no job, no savings of money. Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love."

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

9/11, kids and why I may be lucky

The thought seemed so absurd that I was afraid to bring it up.

It went like this: I saw the roster of kids playing on my son's 8-year-old baseball tournament team, and I noticed that Jon was the youngest. By far. By three months. No other child was born after October 2001.

No November. No December. Just Jon in January.

Four of the 12 were in second grade. The Little League age cutoff was April 30, so every single child - except for Jon - was born within that short time frame, between May 1 and Oct. 31, 2001.

That's six months, the latter two being the months that followed the Sept. 11 attacks.

I've wondered for a while if there was a connection. I witnessed first-hand the trauma people went through at the time, and in the moments and days and weeks that followed the attacks. I remember smelling the odor of ash, burnt rubble and flesh and thinking, God, this can't be good for me, or anybody.

Frankly, when I've raised the issue, I've gotten stares and some polite acknowledgments. "Oh, that's interesting, Tom....anyway, what else is new?"

But I still think about it, from time-to-time: What kind of impact did 9/11 have on pregnancies? Did it lead to more miscarriages? Did the trauma suffered by so many cause the premature birth rate to go up?

How was it that Jon was the only one born in 2002 who was able to play on that team?

Recent studies have shown that, perhaps, the idea isn't so ridiculous and, in fact, the impact on pregnancies could be a microcosm for the stress felt by the nation as a whole.

Indeed, the studies provide what may be the most stirring and profound evidence so far that so many, and perhaps the nation as a whole, suffered from a form of Post-Traumatic Syndrome when they learned of friends and family who died in the attacks, or watched people suffer on T.V.

Pregnant women were vulnerable because of the stress they felt that was conscious and unconscious. A study released in May said the stress felt by women after the terrorist attacks may have contributed to an increase in miscarriages of male fetuses in the United States.

The BMC Public Health journal said the male fetal death rate also increased in September 2001. Miscarriages jumped 12 percent that same month.

My wife felt the stress, too, but others seemed to feel it more. I remember people going up to my wife at the time and saying, "How do you feel about having a baby in a world like this?"

I remember thinking, please, don't say that to her. We plan on seeing this pregnancy through.

PTSD certainly can also take years to develop. We may never really know what kind of long-term impact 9/11 really has had on the nation for decades, after more studies researching the same or different things come out.

But these studies, at least, provide a start.

The authors of the BMC report, for instance, suggested that communal bereavement may have prompted an increase in miscarriages of boys, because male fetuses are believed to be more sensitive than females to stress hormones.

Just the other day, I heard Annie Murphy Paul talk about it on T.V., and I felt a little more validated.

She addressed it in her recently published book: Origins: How the Nine Months Before Birth Shape the Rest of Our Lives, where she talks about how "many our individual characteristics - our health, our intelligence, our temperaments - are influenced by the conditions we encountered before birth."

She looks at how people "gestated" during the Nazi siege of Holland in World War II and how people are still feeling its consequences decades later; how household chemicals can harm a developing fetus; and how pregnant women who experienced the 9/11 attacks "passed their trauma on to their offspring in the womb."

This isn't about me, of course. I don't care if I feel validated. I just hope there are people out there who don't forget what happened, and try to ignore the long-lasting impact that that day has had on this country.

I said in a previous article that I feel as though this nation has been in a collective funk since Sept. 11, 2001. My hope is that the more research that's done to look at how we think feel and act, the better we can handle ourselves in the future.

The studies also make me look at my son, and seeing him excel in school, sports and just about everything, and say, geez, I'm a lucky guy.

Friday, October 1, 2010

A son's lesson

When I first heard about Tyler Clementi, the Rutgers freshman whose suicide has drawn anger and sorrow, I felt that - as a society - we were going nowhere.

But it was my son who made me feel differently. He could somehow relate to what happened, because he knows there are bullies out there. A long time ago, kids may have feared the bullies, and ignored the victim.

Bullies are bullies, and they come in every color, gender and sexual orientation. When a 12-year-old can connect to the tormented soul of an 18-year-old gay man, and show disdain for those who tormented him, I feel like it's safe to have hope - even as we mourn Tyler's death.

For nearly all my life, the lesbian and gay community have been treated like second-class citizens. Their lifestyles are routinely mocked and ridiculed. Many are still forced into the closet, even as society seems to have reached a sobering understanding and respect for what homosexuality is.

Clementi's death reminded me that so many more are still tormented, even as they stay safely in the shadows, keeping their private lives protected. Even at my college, my alma mater, and where I work as an adjunct professor, I thought they had a chance because of the diverse population.

But at my college, Tyler was filmed by another student while he was having a sexual encounter. For a small group of students, it was a funny thing, an anti-manly thing straight out of a 1962 joke book.

When my son needed to think of his current-event project for school, it was the first thing he thought about. I won't say what he said, but he felt like he needed to say something.

We warned him that he could be ridiculed, too. Maybe people would even make fun of him for showing an understanding of a lifestyle that many still don't understand.

But my son felt like he should do it, because Tyler and his family needed to know that he's on their side. My guess is that he wanted to take a stand, because somebody should.